Death never comes close to me until this day.
I have never felt the sadness of death in most of my adult life. I remembered a memorable death of my dear grandmother,from my father’s side, long long time ago when I was a kid. Oh I remembered the sudden death of my good auntie Den Den. She had a stroke when taking a shower. We were not very close because we live so far away, but we knew the miracleous changes that happened in her ever since she got Christ in her. That was saddening bec we hate to see this courageous woman leaving us, we hoped to see more of her bold actions and we long to see her win her son back into Christ.So her death was a shock for us.
Today I feel a different kind of death. A death of a normal and simple man who is very dear to me and has supported much of my marriage life. That man is my Father in Law, Ie Yan Hok.
He was not a bold speaking man, he was always below radar, catching more attention when speaking one on one. He has the heart of a true loving father where he wishes no harm to ever come upon any of his children. He went through desert as a child, a desert he hoped none of his children should ever have to experience. I think this is one of his highest request to God and through those, we his children received blessings. Abundantly. If ever there was a man who could persuade the doors of heaven to pour blessings, this man would be one for sure.
He quoted a verse for me once during lunch, I could tell from the way he explained that he believes in it entirely with absolutely no doubt. He had that verse in his heart, not in his brain. That verse was:
I was young and now I am old,
yet I have never seen the righteous forsaken
or their children begging bread.
Well I guess if life started as a plain white A3 drawing paper, then my first job would color as nice orange, falling in love would color as valentine pink, graduating as cool green, being treated in hospital for dengue as fading grey, getting married as sky blue and to experience going trough the death of my father in law as Total-Dark-Pitch-Black. I never thought darkness can be so black….